People change…what makes them change?

Everybody in their life will face some hard times. It is done for a purpose. When we can pass the hard times successfully, we will change. We’ll be a better person.

I belief in this philosophy very much, because I made it myself ;P. Hee-hee. As I was growing up, growing older, I faced so many things, so many hard times, and I changed a lot. I feel better and better each year. Until now… now, I face a hard time again… I get trapped in a new situation, with new problems… new persons… problems and persons that I have never faced before.

I would like to share my situation here, with Carter Burwell’s Lullaby playing now, I hope I can get the ease for my heart and soul.

On my first year in my university, I’ve joined the Students Organization, and was working with two lovely boys named R and W. It was a nice time. We laugh and smile a lot; they were very nice, and patient. Although I’ve ruined many things: I’ve failed one of our projects, I played badly in our games in the Organization’s Leadership Training, and I almost lost our money in a project (and before that, I’ve miscounted the money), but they were still very nice. I can feel that they were trying to understand my situation, and they loved me as a family, even they called me “Mommy”.

Then now, I find that only W calls me with that name. He always smiles at me, even jokes around with me, but R doesn’t. He changed. He doesn’t even look at me or smile, or give me a waving hand, even a few days ago, when we were just separated 2 meters away and I called him cheerfully.

I know I’ve made some mistakes. I didn’t check my Friendster regularly so I missed R’s birthday comment on it, and didn’t check it until 1 week later we met in Bhakper building and he told me himself that I missed his birthday comment while actually he sent it at midnight to be the first person who wished me a happy birthday. I was so so so so so.. sorry for that… T,T After that, I found it very hard for him to call my name or even say hello when we meet…

Then, I also feel that one of my other friends also changed. We were in the same group, we sang together, we followed a competition, and we won it. It wasn't a big competition, just a small one, but it was a memory for me. We fought together, we sang together, we dance together. Just like what Jason Mraz says: we sing, we dance, we steal something ^^, we stole the glory.

We were not so close, actually I thought she's kinda show off, but when after we worked together, I knew that she's worth it. Our relationship become closer after that. She used to ignore me when we meat, and me too, but after the competition, we joked around, we hugged, we played together, took pictures, she was one of my favorite friends.

Then, again, I made a mistake. Lately, I've been so Choleric, unsympathetic, but I did it intentionally. I've never want to hurt someone, really, but that day, I knew I hurt her.

It was a few days before my departure to Jakarta to have a Chinese competition, and I was so panic looking for a suit for my performance. Then I remember her and come to her to borrow her clothes. When I asked her, she directly said that she had the clothing that I need. I was so happy and said that she was my savior, but the next day when she came and showed me the cloth, it was out of my expectation. So I said it directly in front of her and one of the lecture that this wasn't exactly what I want. I felt so disappointed at that time, I thought it would be expressed on my face, so I looked at her and there was no change on her face. So I thought it was okay, no problem, she knew that this wasn't what I want but it wasn't a problem. Anyway I'd like to appreciate her help so I borrowed that cloth.

When I got home from my competition, I completely forgot about her cloth because I didn't wear that anyway, and she was just like disappearing from my life. I've rarely seen her for a couple of days. Then when I saw her, I remembered her cloth and said to her that I would bring her cloth on the next day and thanked her for her help. But again, I forgot about it until a week later.

I felt bad about it and tried to tell her that I was sorry. So I kept my eye on her, watched her moves, waiting for the right time to share my feelings, but as I paid more attention to her, I knew that she has changed.

She never called my name, say hello to me, or even looked at me. She ignores me... I was so shocked about that. Everybody knows that she is the most friendly girl among us, she is famous of her kindness, jokes, but now... she ignores me... Even, when I tried to be friendly to her, I wrote a comment on her facebook, she removed that... T,T.... this was the worst moment in my friendship life...

What makes them change? What makes "R" and "that girl" change? My forgetfulness? My bad choleric personality? The cloth? The friendster?

I miss them so so so..bad... Although they were not my very close friend, but, I miss their jokes, their smiles, their "hello"s....


Guys, I'm sorry...

The Princess and the Frog

One day, there is a princess who lives in a castle near a swamp. Then when she has a walk in the morning after raining day, she finds a frog. It's just a dirty frog that comes from the swamp, she knows that. But somehow, she is so interested in the frog.

After looking for some information about the frog, she knows that the frog is actually a prince!!! (imajinasi...) But wait, it's not really like what you think...

The frog is actually has come back to its true form, the prince. But the prince thinks that it’s better to be a frog in a swamp. He loves living as a frog in a swamp, so he comes back to the swamp and lives there.

The curse given to the prince has turned him into a frog again, because the prince likes it too. Nobody cares about that but our princess. The princess has seen the true prince inside the frog, and she has fallen in love with him, and wanted to marry him. But it’s impossible for our princess to live in a swamp too. She’s a princess; she realizes that, and also the responsibilities that come with it. So how can she marry him? The prince should be the future king, something has to be changed, and the question is which one: her love, or the frog?

NB: the problem is; because the prince really likes being a frog, he avoids every girl that comes after him, in order not to be kissed and turned back into a prince again.

Malunya... >.< ;

Saya juga manusia yang punya kelemahan. Ciee.. ^^ Dibacanya berasa bijaksana gimana... gitu kan? But I really mean it. Saya pelupa, lupa sama barang2 saya, lupa sama apa yg ingin saya lakukan, lupa mau ke mana, lupa ada di mana (tapi jarang) dan lupa2 lainnya. Selain itu, saya juga banyak tidak tahu, tidak tahu tentang motor, tidak tahu jalan dan ketidaktahuan lainnya.

Hari ini adalah hari yang lumayan penting buat saya. Not too important, but I was really anxious about today. Saya sangat suka menyanyi, terutama menyanyikan lagu2 yang memang saya suka. Saya juga suka berteman, terutama dengan teman2 yang saya suka (^ ^); - agak gak penting... Well, hari ini ada audisi buat pengisi acara Ms Chung Festival dan I'm going to sing with my friends. So, today should be a very nice day.

Saya sudah berpikir sebelumnya; bagaimana kalau saya tidak tahu tempat studio musiknya? Saya sempat bingung akan mengajak siapa, karena saya benar2 tidak pernah ke tempat itu. Tapi, karena saya merasa harus mandiri dan menghilangkan sindrom dependant saya, saya bulatkan tekad untuk PD dan pergi ke studio itu sendiri.

Sepanjang jalan saya hanya memikirkan betapa senangnya jika bisa bernyanyi bersama teman2. Waktu pun berpacu, sama sepertinya saya yang berpacu dengannya karena saya terlambat 10 menit (^ ^);. I rode my motorbike, until I reached the landmark that my friends told me and realize that... I really have no idea where I was going... ('_');

Mencoba keberuntungan saya, saya pun belok ke gang terdekat yang bisa saya masuki, dan menjelajah... Tidak butuh waktu lama samapai saya menemukan sebuah rumah yang lumayan besar dan dipenuhi motor yang parkir di sebelahnya. Saya sempat merasa.. ada yang aneh dengan rumah itu.. Tapi kemudian saya sadar, yang aneh adalah; kenapa dengan motor sebanyak itu saya tidak bisa menemukan seorangpun disana yang bisa dijadikan tempat menanyakan jalan (?,?).

Kemudian saya menuju kios kecil di dekat rumah itu, kebetulan ada mbak2 di sana. Saya pun bertanya, 

Sy : "Mbak, Sarangan di mana ya?"

Mbak2 : "Di sini Sarangan..."

Sy : "Oh..." (gak salah juga feeling gw!!)

  "Terus, no 12 yang mana ya?"

Mbak2 : (dengan tampang agak bingung) "Kayaknya di sini no 12..."

Sy : (sambil toleh kanan kiri) "Oh..?"

Suara : "del..!! del..!!"

Sy : (berasa aneh) "..."

Suara : "Del!! Del!! DELLLL!!!"

Sy : (noleh ke arah suara)

Dan saudara-saudara... ternyata temen2 saya sudah pada nungging dengan indahnya di atas balkon rumah yg banyak motornya tadi, latian vokal dengan neriakin nama saya... sambil ketawa-ketawa...

Mati... deh...

Maluuuuuuu..... >.<

Padahal studio udah di depan idung...

What's Your Element?

Air

The Element of Air is attached to the Signs Gemini, Libra and Aquarius. It also rules the Third, Seventh and Eleventh Houses. It is rarefied air which usually surrounds those graced by this Element, as this is the marker of the intellectual. Airy people are smart thinkers and handle abstract reasoning well. They love to analyze, synthesize and probe. Do you have a dilemma? Hand it over to an Air Sign and watch them go to work.

Air Signs are also about communication. These individuals want to get the word out, and it's not likely to be fluff. They are alert, curious and perceptive. The world as seen by an Air Sign will be an interesting one, as their analysis and subsequent explanation (hopefully in terms we can understand) will indicate. Those influenced by Air are inventive and clever. They see all sides of the equation and are able to glean the best approach. Balance is important to these airy folk.

So, are Air Signers fresh as a summer breeze or howling like the wind? Probably both, depending on when you catch them. While these folks are often cool, calm and collected, they can turn cold if their equilibrium is upset. A word to the wise: there's little upside in baiting an Air Sign.

Another plus with Air is that it manifests itself in a most humane way. Those influenced by Air can truly wear another's shoes, as it were. They are objective, cooperative and really want to help make a better world. There's no prejudice with these folks, just a bright and shiny idealism which can accomplish much.

Air Signs are communicative, intellectual, clever and fair. They can blow hot and cold, though, so beware of a chilly draft!

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Earth

The Element of Earth is attached to the Signs Taurus, Virgo and Capricorn, and it also rules the Second, Sixth and Tenth Houses. All the earthy metaphors are appropriate here: salt of the Earth, feet firmly planted on the ground and so forth. Those graced by an Earth Sign in their horoscope are practical, grounded and dependable. These folks aren't taking big risks, much preferring a sure thing.

Much like the Elements are considered the building blocks in nature, Earth Signs are the builders of the zodiac. To these Signs, creation is a tangible proposition. Whether it's building jobs or homes, or creating comfortable rooms within that home through the acquisition of possessions, Earth Signers are about all what is solid around us. Those influenced by this Element feel best once they have accumulated a goodly number of worldly possessions. The risk inherent in this, however, is that these individuals may become greedy and far too materialistic.

The Element of Earth also confers a sense of duty, responsibility and reliability to those in its sphere. These are the people you can count on to be there when you need them. Those influenced by Earth also tend toward caution and conservatism, in both desire and approach. That said, they are sensualists, certainly in that they appreciate a good meal and fine wine better than anyone else.

The logical mind of an Earth Signer is always appreciated. In keeping with this measured approach, these folks also display considerable recuperative powers. On the flip side of things, however, those supported by Earth may be so caught up in their objectives that they might overlook the feelings of others. It is a big picture, after all, but these folks may be more concerned with the finish line than the journey they are taking.

Earth Signs are dependable, practical and conservative, yet fairly materialistic. They have their feet on the ground but their eyes on the prize.

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Fire

The Element of Fire is associated with the Signs Aries, Leo and Sagittarius, and it also rules the First, Fifth and Ninth Houses. As one would expect, those graced by Fire are fiery, indeed. They are enthusiastic and sometimes larger than life. Just like a fire that is left untended, however, Fire Signs can burn out of control. Ouch! It's best to tend those embers.

A Fire Sign is also an indicator of creativity. This Element manifests itself in creative and unique ways, and those in its glow are also wonderfully courageous, lively spirits. Those influenced by a Fire Sign are self-sufficient, spontaneous and possess a tremendous zest for life.

It also stands to reason that a combustible Fire Signer would be ardent in the game of love. Yes, these are the sexiest Signs of the Zodiac, knowing they are the cat's meow and climbing ever higher in the name of love. To their credit, those touched by Fire are often an inspiration to others, certainly for their adherence to solid moral and religious ideals.

If there's a flip side to the Element of Fire, it can be that those who bear its will can be overly strident in getting their way. Call it bossy, even. These folks can come across rather forcefully. Selfishness and an overdeveloped ego can also be seen as part of a fiery individual's shadowy side.

Fire Signs are strong, self-assured, creative and fun. When they get too hot to touch, though, it may be a good idea to stand back!

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Water

The Element of Water is associated with the Signs Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces, and it also rules the Fourth, Eighth and Twelfth Houses. The watery words flow with this Element: fluid, flowing, wavering. These terms can easily apply to an individual's emotions, which are exactly the realm in which Water exerts its influence.

Water Signs are intuitive, sensitive and feel more intensely than the rest. They are emotional and nurturing and, like a river, run deep. How things feel is what matters to these folks, and they base their actions on sense, rather than on logic or intellect. Water is also about compassion and understanding, since the receptive talents of these individuals are remarkably high. Water Sign people can take in the feelings of others, process them, and put forth a plan or solution that will be conscientious to all.

Those graced by Water love to take their sense of the world and translate it into the artistic. They desire aesthetic beauty -- and for everyone to be happy as a result of that beauty. Much like still water can become stagnant, however, an inactive Water Sign person is not a Water Sign person at their best. Water Signs feel most fulfilled when they are helping others, and they do so in an enchanting, considerate and even romantic way.

The flip side of this dreamy Water world is the tendency of these individuals to brood. Water Signs are susceptible to mood swings, and, at their worst, they could become self-indulgent, controlling and hostage to a fantasy world. This also brings up the ability of these folks to see things more clearly than others. Call it psychic, if you will.

Water Signs are emotional, empathetic, receptive and feel things deeply. Alternately calm like the sea or possessing the force of a torrential rain, the emotions brought forth by this Element are plentiful, indeed.

Source: www.astrology.com

Karakter Cewek Menurut Zodiak

ARIES (21 Maret-20 April)

Cewek Aries cenderung mandiri. Waktu menghadapi masalah, cewek Aries paling bisa menggunakan logika dibanding cewek-cewek berzodiak lain. Tapi, awas dengan emosinya yang kadang bisa muntah seperti lahar gunung berapi. Jadi, kalau mau mendekatinya, tunjukin kesabaranmu. Jangan menuntut terlalu banyak. Make it slow guys! 

TAURUS (21April-21 Mei)

Sifat keras kepala si Taurus dan mood-nya yang suka berubah-ubah bakal bikin kamu harus bersabar. Hari ini dia bersikap manis, besok dia bisa nggak menyapamu sama sekali. Cewek Taurus sangat cinta binatang. Jadi, kalau kamu tiba-tiba datang dengan sepasang hamster, dia pasti akan lumer. Cewek Taurus sangat suka kebebasan. Jadi, kalau kamu mengikatnya dia malah bakal lari! Sesekali sembunyiin batang hidungmu, soalnya dia bakal sebel kalau melihatmu berkeliaran di sampingnya terus menerus. 

GEMINI (22 Mei-21 Juni)

Gampang bosan, itulah ciri khas cewek Gemini. Itulah yang kadang membuatnya jadi semacam playgirl, karena dia selalu terbang dari satu cowok ke cowok lain. Kamu harus punya banyak stok kejutan untuk membuatnya terus terpesona olehmu. Misalnya, hari ini kamu bawain dia bunga. Besok, bawa dia berkencan di kawah gunung Semeru. Gemini sangat pintar berakting, jadi banyak-banyaklah menjalin hubungan dengan teman-teman dekatnya untuk mengetahui apa yang dia inginkan. 

CANCER (22 Juni-23 Juli)

Sensitif dan terlihat rapuh, itulah yang paling mewakili cewek Cancer. Tabu baginya untuk menyatakan perasaan. Kalau menyukainya, cepetan luncurkan peluru cinta. Kadang, Cancer bisa jadi Miss Sinetron yang mendramatisir suasana. Jangan lupakan ultahnya dan sering-seringlah melontarkan pujian. Misalnya, "Kamu cantik banget hari ini," atau, "Kamu cocok deh pakai baju itu." Cewek Cancer sangat posesif lho. 

LEO (24 Juli-23 Agustus)

Seperti lambangnya, cewek Leo sangat percaya diri dan merasa dirinya unik. Jangan memberi barang obralan padanya. Kalau dia tahu, kesempatanmu mendekatinya hanya 0%! Cewek Leo juga suka barang-barang mahal dan bermerek. Kamu kudu merogoh kocek yang nggak sedikit untuk bisa memenangkan hatinya. Ia juga sangat suka pujian, tapi segala sesuatu yang berlebihan akan membuatnya muak. Dengan sifat pemimpinnya, sesekali biarkan ia memutuskan dimana kalian akan makan malam ini. 

VIRGO (24 Agustus-23 September)

Cewek Virgo terkenal sangat romantis, menyukai sikap gentleman dan menghargai kecerdasan otak. Kalau nggak sepintar dirinya, mending kamu lupain dia sekarang juga. Bukakan pintu, sediakan kursi untuknya, dan biarkan dirimu berada di sisi tertabrak ketika menyeberang. Jangan pernah mengingkari janji atau datang terlambat. No chance to get into her kalau kamu sampai melakukannya.

LIBRA (24 September-23 Oktober)

Simbol timbangan yang melekat di cewek Libra bukannya tanpa makna. Cewek ini selalu menganggap dirinya seimbang dengan cowok. But, dia juga sering nggak tahu apa yang sebenarnya ia inginkan. Cewek Libra sangat payah berurusan dengan jadwal. Tapi untuk urusan berdebat, dia jagonya. Kalau mau merebut hatinya, bersikaplah sangat percaya diri. Tunjukkan padanya bahwa kamu adalah cowok ramah, sopan, dan bisa bersikap gentleman. Last, jadilah pendengar yang baik.

SCORPIO (24 Oktober-22 November)

Sangat ekspresif. Wajah cewek Scorpio sangat mencerminkan apa yang sedang ia rasakan saat ini. Kadang, dia bisa jadi sangat licik dan memanfaatkan orang lain untuk memenuhi kebutuhannya. So, jangan heran kalau suatu ketika dia berakting manja hanya supaya kamu mau mengantarkannya ke salon. Kalau kamu ingin mengusainya, tunjukkan kekuatanmu. Cewek Scorpio cenderung suka ditaklukkan sih. Jangan lupa meminta maaf setiap dia mulai ngambek. Tapi, ketahuilah dahulu apa yang membuatnya marah. 

SAGITARIUS (23 November-21 Desember)

Jangan pernah terlihat lemah di hadapan cewek Sagitarius. Lebih baik kamu sok melindunginya, karena cewek ini suka dilindungi. Tapi jangan sampai kamu kekang kebebasannya. Cewek ini juga selalu mengutarakan apa yang ada di pikirannya tanpa tedeng aling-aling. Kalau dia bilang nggak suka untuk yang kelima kalinya, mending kamu cari cewek lain aja deh. Kadang keterusterangannya ini terasa menyakitkan. Kalau kamu ingin mendapatkan cintanya, cobalah jadi sahabatnya terlebih dahulu.

CAPRICORN (22 Desember-20 Januari)

Cewek ini sangat suka keteraturan dan kebersihan. Sebelum kamu bertandang ke rumahnya, perhatikan penampilan! Artinya, jangan sampai bajumu tersentuh noda atau belum diseterika. Kamu bisa membuatnya ilfil seketika. Jangan pernah komplain mengenai betapa lama ia menghabiskan waktu untuk berdandan. Cewek Capricorn selalu melakukan apa yang ingin ia lakukan, jadi jangan pernah menyuruhnya melakukan sesuatu hanya karena semua orang melakukannya.

AQUARIUS (21 Januari-9 Februari)

Tipe pemimpin sejati, selalu sibuk dan memiliki kepercayaan diri yang tinggi. Memiliki rasa penasaran kepada cowok yang cuek. Itu merupakan tantangan tersendiri baginya. Jadi jangan kaget kalau ia mengajakmu keluar duluan. Di balik kekuatannya, Aquarius seringkali merasa kesepian dan rapuh. Kadang kamu harus bisa memanjakannya. Misalnya, meski ia tidak meminta, antarkan ia ke tempat les.

PISCES (20 Februari-20 Maret)

Cewek Pisces adalah pemimpi sejati. Dia jadi sangat lemah dan sensitif ketika harus berhadapan dengan cinta. Kadang, sifat emosionalnya bisa membuat orang frustasi. Jangan sering-sering membuatnya menangis. Enaknya, cewek ini nggak akan berusaha menguasai cowok manapun. Habis, dia merasa cowok lebih superior. Kalau ingin bersamanya, bersabar dan bersiap untuk selalu menuntunnya. 

Jadi, what do you think? Well, don't judge a book by it's cover - don't judge someone ny the zodiac. Tapi artikel ini bisa jadi referensi buat yang pengen tahu. Hehehe. Good Luck!

My Lovely Cat

I have a cat. It's a male, and his name is Empuss. Hehe, sebenernya saya juga ndak pernah tau sapa namanya, soalnya kadang dia dipanggil empuss, boy, gendut.. Hehehe. Banyak juga, tergantung yang manggil. Hehehe. Tapi dia nolehnya kalo dipanggil empuss atau boy. 

Banyak hal yang bikin saya sayaaaaang banget sama empus; 1. dia kucing, 2. empus bersihan, 3. imut banget!!! dan 4. banyak kesamaan sama saya (tapi saya ndak berekor sepanjang empus, hehehehe).

Kesamaan saya sama empus:

1. Suka minum susu

2. Sayang banget sama Eyang Kakung

3. Manja, hehehe

4. Gampang ngambek, tapi gampang lupa ngambeknya

5. Suka ditemenin dan diperhatiin

6. Males, huhehehe

7. dan lain-lain.

Empuss ini kucing istimewa. Dia bisa bikin breakthrough (halah..). Banyak banget prestasi yang belum pernah dicapai kucing-kucing peliharaan di rumah saya sebelumnya yang telah diperoleh Empuss. Prestasi yang paling hebat adalah.... Jreng jreng!!!! Disayang sama ayah saya!!!! Woi!! Hebat pisan si empus euy!!!

Yup! Ayah saya, bukanlah seorang fleksibel yang bisa toleransi sama banyak hal, termasuk hewan. My family had ever have 2 cats before, same color and gender with empuss. Tapi ayah saya ndak sesayang seperti ke empus ini. ayah saya masih sering marah-marah kalau saya main terlalu akrab sama kucing, ayah juga ndak suka kalau diganggu kucing. Tapi kalau sama si empus ini, udah kayak dapet anak cowok gitu (kayaknya agak lebai). Yah, ndak sebegitunya, cuman ya, beda aja! Kalau sama si empus ini, ayah sayang banget. Biar kata si empus udah ngentutin saya 2 kali (beneran lho!), pipis di banyak tempat (di dalem rumah, di sepeda motor mama, di ban mobil ayah, di taneman, kok ndak di saya aja sekalian.. hehehehe), tapi ayah tetep ngebolehin empus masuk rumah, riwa-riwi, lari-lari, bahkan manjat-manjat ke perut ayah. Prestasi yang sangat Ruaaarrrr biasaaaahhh!!!

Salut deh sama empus. Empat jempol!!

Exceptional

Sometimes, I feel very down and feel that I can do nothing good (don't feel this at home ;P). When I see my friends get on the stage and perform their talent, especially singing, and when they can perform it very well, I feel so down... Well, it doesn't mean that I don't like to see them succeeding their performance, but, I just feel... How cool they are, how beautiful their voice, how lucky me seeing them performing like that, and... I'm just sitting in front of them and do nothing, nothing like... nothing... I can do nothing...

But then I remember my promise; to always try to be happy and positive thinking. Then I try to assure myself that everything will be okay and I've try the best, and thank God for everything that he gave to me, and I listen to this song:

Jojo - Exceptional

You're beautiful but you don't know

Can't see what's there inside your soul

Always feelin like you're not good enough

You wish you could be someone else

Sometimes you just can't see yourself

But I can see just who you are, who you are

You're exceptional the way you are

Don't need to change for nobody

You're incredible, anyone can see that

When will you believe that?

You are nothing but exceptional

(Yeah)

You never you think you measure up

Never smart or cool, or pretty enough

Always feeling different from all the rest, oh

You feel so out of place, you think you don't fit in

I think you're perfect in the skin you're in

You're just perfect just how you are, just how you are, yeah

[chorus]

You're exceptional the way you are

Don't need to change for nobody

You're incredible, anyone can see that

When will you believe that?

You are nothing but exceptional

If you could see the one I see when I see you

You'd know how lucky you are to be you

I see through into you

And you are

You're exceptional the way you are

Don't need to change for nobody

You're incredible, anyone can see that

When will you believe that? (You are)

You're exceptional the way you are

Don't need to change for nobody

You're incredible, anyone can see that

When will you believe that?

You are nothing but exceptional

And you know something... We're all exceptional.